kindred spirits and going home

03Jun07

So LOL and I have always referred to each other as “kindred spirits”. He recently claimed that my mother coined this term. I don’t exactly remember this conversation, but it seems highly likely. My mother is definitely the type to reference Anne of Green Gables. Little did she know what LOL and I would turn into… I just don’t know. I’m trying so hard to shake my somehow deeply rooted “beliefs” in things like soulmates. It’s not actually what I believe but somewhere along the line, I picked this crap up. LOL is absolutely convinced that I am his “perfect match”. I just don’t know. I think he’s just my kindred spirit, but not necessarily my soulmate. I mean, even in the famous story- Anne and Dianna certainly weren’t soulmates!!! They were both girls. Thank you, Captain Obvious. But you know what I mean.

So I casually mentioned to LOL that I will probably be bringing New Guy home this summer. He was calmer than I expected. He just immediately threatened that if he ever saw him he would “have no mercy and beat the crap out of him”.  I would really hate to see a fight between those two. I think they actually would kill each other. Literally. LOL has an incredible, absolutely incredible amount of anger and passion. But I think New Guy is way stronger and definitely bigger and definitely has more experience having been in the army and whatnot. It would be… awful. So I don’t know how I’m supposed to schedule this weekend to avoid such a catastrophe.

So I want to marry the New Guy. I really think I do. But there’s that part of me that’s afraid deep down that LOL, my first love, my kindred spirit is the one and I’m giving up too soon. How could that possibly be true? It better not be. But how I am supposed to figure this out. No one would really understand this problem but a kindred spirit. Or at least someone who has a kindred spirit…

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